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Friday, December 31, 2010

I dun wanna b anythng othr than me.....

dis song is dedicated 2 evryone out there who is tired 
being treated da way they might nt wanna b..... 

enjoy da song n lyrics n i hope u guys 
cn gets wat lies in dis lyrics...... 

I Dun Wanna B by Gavin Degraw 

I don't need to be anything other
Than a prison guard's son
I don't need to be anything other
Than a specialist's son
I don't have to be anyone other
Than the birth of two souls in one
Part of where I'm going, is knowing where I'm coming from

[Chorus:]
I don't want to be
Anything other than what I've been trying to be lately
All I have to do
Is think of me and I have peace of mind
I'm tired of looking 'round rooms
Wondering what I've got to do
Or who I'm supposed to be
I don't want to be anything other than me

I'm surrounded by liars everywhere I turn
I'm surrounded by imposters everywhere I turn
I'm surrounded by identity crisis everywhere I turn
Am I the only one who noticed?
I can't be the only one who's learned!

[Chorus]

Can I have everyone's attention please?
If you're not like this and that, you're gonna have to leave
I came from the mountain
The crust of creation
My whole situation-made from clay to stone
And now I'm telling everybody

[Chorus]

I don't want to be [x4] 




                                   till den,
                  love Kiwi

Sunday, December 26, 2010

Trend......

"Trend dies but style remains 4eva......" 

npe msti nk ikut trend ea????
ade ssape ley bg jwpn nyer x???

pelik tp nie lar yg rmai org kt luar sna wat.......
mcm2 lar korg nie.....
pelik2....
perlu ke nk ikut trend?????
npe x cipta style sndri jerk?????

bkn ape lar tp rse cm org yg trlmpau ikut trend nie cm pathetic sgt......
cm xde pegangan idup.......
ape gne ngan trend nie.......
kjap jerk pn.....
pas2 da tkar trend bru.......
xsmpat ko nk brnfas ngan trend nie,kuar trend bru.....
ape cer????

okay let say lar ko nie idup mewah,len cite ar.....
abes klau ko pn idup xsberapa tp stakat idup nk level cm socialite,ape cite????
nie lar yg org kata "biar papa asl brgaya"......
pelik npe org ske idup cmnie......
klau beli brg 2 mmg gnekn btol2 xpe gak.....
nie pas beli dua tiga mnggu pas 2 da bsan da.......
n yg tkang mmbelikn mak bpak gak.......
klau beli sndri 2 len cite ar.......
nie mak bpak gak support......
haih.... 
sgt2 xmatang okay..... 

x yah lar nk ikut2 trend nie.......
xgne jerk.....
klau btol2 mnat ngan bnde 2 n kmbangkn mnat ngan bnde yg dbeli 2 xpe lar...
xyah mmbazir duit beli bnde mhal2 pas 2 xgne.....
ape lar sgt ngan trend nie weyh....
xbest ar klau stakat nk ikut trend tp gne duit mak bpak.....
gne ar duit sndri kot ye pn.....
stakat mnat skjap pas 2 da xmnat xyah ar beli.....
mmg sgt2 mmbazir.......

nsihat aku pd org yg mnat ikut trend nie....
dah2 lar 2.......
trend nie kjap jerk......
xkmana pn......
cipta style sndri......
lg best.....
klau nk gak ikut trend 2,korek duit sndri.....
jgn ssahkn mak bpak......
blajar jd matang skit......  

p/s: nie just luahn prasaan ble bsan.....esp ble tgk org mnat sgt ikut trend.....
       jgn jdkn trend 2 gaya idup....tkut nt mkn dri jerk.....
      

A lot of people don't want to make their own decisions. They're too scared. It's much easier to be told what to do. Americans talk so much about being individualistic, but they don't want you to be an individual because if you think for yourself then you're not going to be a part of any trend that they want you to be a part of. They don't want you to think for yourself. They tell you they do so that you're happy and you're stupid and you're sheep. Anybody intelligent enough to realize what America is, is not going to sit around and do nothing about it. They're going to be the same way that I am. They're going to be the same way our fans are. They're going to be pissed. These people are artists. These people are musicians. They're taking it out and trying to express it that way. The rest of the world, who are just willing to accept it, are gonna be doing their everyday jobs, and they're going to be trapped in a rut, and they're never gonna see it until the day they die, and they're gonna be disappointed when they don't go to heaven anyway 'cause they were too stupid to realize that it's not going to happen.

                                     -Marilyn Manson quote-

                                                                                                                                                                      
till den,
                                                                                                  
love Kiwi

Thursday, December 23, 2010

Merry Xmas n a Happy New Year.......



Merry Xmas evryone!!!!!!!!
n a Happy New Year.....

Lets shout out 2 our frens out there who celebrated dis festive of hope n magical.......
Lots n lots hugs n kisses 2 ya out there......
Send my regards 2 ya family.....
n dun frgt me here.....
Send me lots of cards n gifts.....
Ngeh3x.......
It wn't happen.....
Hahahaha.....
Dreaming myself out dis morning.....
Hoping dat i cn gt smethng 4 xmas......lol.....

Okay,da reason y i wrote dis is cz i just watched my fav movie of all.......
Since it is Xmas eve,i've decided 2 entertain myself wit Home Alone......
Hahahahaha.......
A family comedy witout a family.......
I enjoy evry scene of dis movie.....esp da qoute "keep da change u filthy animal".....
Hahahaha........
I've watched it like hundred times alredi since i was small,but dis movie nvr bores me at all....... 
Evn if i mde a back 2 back aso wn't bores me.......
I guess dis is da best feelings of all......
Da festive season dat we've waited 4........
Evthough i ddn't celebrate Xmas,but i cn feel da joy n happiness of people who celebrate it....... 


favourite movie of all....



I'm lucky dat i live in a country wit dffrent races......
Dis is cz i cn experienced myself celebrating othrs festive like Chinese New Year, Xmas, Deepavali n my festive which is Hari Raya Aidilfitri......
It is so much fun cz i cn gt myself nt just an "ang pau" but i cn try 2 undrstand
myself bout othrs culture.......

Since i was small,i hv dis excitement of seeing othr people's celebration......
When it cmes 2 Chinese New Year, my Chinese fren wll gv me lots of oranges n nt 2 frgt my parents frens n our previous neighbour.......
They wll send tones of oranges 4 us 2 eat n mind u it is a hard work just 2 finished it all.....
Hahahaha......
Da celebration was fun n i still rmmber when my brother's fren frm Japan cme 2 visit M'sia,we welcomed them wit a grant celebration of Chinese New Year if i'm nt mstaken.....
Credited 2 High School Muar cz they mde them feel blessed cz having a total fun here wit da lion dance n we all make a round at da field n light ourself lantern......
Nt 2 mention da food provided......
Its delicious n i cn hv a vriety of food there.....
N 2 tell ya a secret,i evn mde myself in Sin Chiew Daily da next morning......
Hahahaha.......
Great isn't it???
I'm wit my "buju kurung" while da Japanese wit their "kimonos" n "yukata" 4 guys......
A gud way 2 b proud of ur country rite?????
Hehehehe........

Jump 2 da next festive which is Deepavali......
Nt so much of memories but i always like Paratha n Tosei......
Hahahaha........
I went 2 my parents fren b4 2 celebrate Deepavali n i end up eating Paratha n Tosei like hell.......lol......
N da best memory evr is when i follow my father 2 celebrate Deepavali in again High School Muar n i end up eating ladoos dat was made 4 pregnant ladies.....
Hahahaha.......
Wat a joke.....but dat was nt my fault as dis lady cme n gv me dat ladoo.......
I thought it was like an ordinary ladoo but when i ate it,it is vry spicy....unlike da ordinary ladoo where it is sweet n yummy......Hahahaha......
Nvm......experience is a gud teacher in life......so i tke it as a rminder 4 me 2 nt eat dat kind of ladoo in da future.....Hahahaha.......

As 4 Xmas,i dun hv any memories of celebrating it but just an experience when i'm abroad.......
When i traveled 2 a country during Xmas,i always enjoyed myself watching those Xmas trees dat was decorated beautifully n there wll b like a competition where lots of big malls wll hv dis huge tree n they wll decorate it wit beautiful2 thngs......
It is so much fun n i cn see lots of family wll b busy shopping 4 their loved ones.....
Da sme story we cn see in M'sia where dis thngs happen......
Evry mall in M'sia wll hv their own unique Xmas tree n i'm sure no one cn beat da Xmas tree in KLCC or in Pavilion.......
They hv dis gigantic n beautiful Xmas tree n i'm sure dat evryone wll spend their holidays 2 watch these beautiful Xmas tree......
N fyi,dis year's national celebration of Xmas wll b at da Malacca's Portugese Village......
Cme on people,tke ur family n hv sme fun celebrating Xmas together wit these people.......
It wll b a vry gud experience 4 us......
Hope da national celebration wll turn out great.......

Okay i thnk i'm goin 2 wrap up evrythng here...
U guys hv 2 wait 4 Hari Raya n i wll update a lot bout my festive......
Hahahaha.......
Later kay.....
Hope u guys hv a blast dis hols n enjoy urself wit families.......
Merry Xmas n a Happy New Year....

A lil bit scope frm me during xmas in Dubai last year...... 


                   sory nt dat clear......but here is me n sis in Ibn Bathutha mall....... 


                                    mom n sis in front of da Xmas tree...... 



okay weird......hahahaha....esp my mom wit hr spontanious act.....hahaha.....

me n bro busy tking pics while my dad just looking round.....haahaha 


                                  me in front of da Xmas tree......hahaha..... 


                                   me again.....hahaha...wit dffrent pose.....

                                                                           
                                                                                         till den,
                                                                                                             love kiwi
                                                                                             

Wednesday, December 22, 2010

Confusion.....

Semalam aku dok tgk blog kwn aku nie.....
mmg gempaq ar.....
xsngka kwn aku sorg nie ade jiwa nk jd sorg blogger.....
hehhehehe........
trase dri nie bgitu kerdil lak .......
cz post2 aku kt blog nie mmg hampes....
xtaw lar....
slame nie dok tulis ikut ape nk jerk......
dlu tulis kt pvt blog.......
so xde org bce.......
aku pn dok lar tulis mcm2 kt situ.....
xprnh lak trpk nk wat blog yg creative2 nie.......
msti org yg bce blog aku nie rse cm ntah pape jerk yg aku cbe smpaikn....
tp nie lar aku......
klau xtulis bnde2 mrepek mmg xsah.......
hahahahaha........

Ari nie aku da msukkn playlist kt blog.......
bru rse cm complete gle ble ade music kt blog nie......
hahahaha.......
sory lar aku nie mmg lmbt skit bab nk msukkn bnde bru.....
bru dscover kot cmne nk msukkn bnde2 cmnie......
mmg kuno aku nie......
wahahahaahha.......
tp pduli ape aku.......
jnji aku gne otak yg Allah bg nie n solve sndri msalah nie.....
klau xblajar smpai ble pn xpndai.....
btol x???? 

Aku pn xtaw ape yg trigger aku tuk jd sorg blogger tegar nie.....
slame nie xmnat sgt pn nk tulis blog.....
tp mayb lpas aku bce blog org len,bru aku taw sronok nyer tulis blog.....
mmg best sbnar nyer....
leh luah prasaan.....
dpt gnekn creativity yg ade tuk tulis blog......
n most importantly,ley kurangkn stress......
hahahahaha.......

Slame nie aku just dok brlapuk speaking mnjang kt blog......
skunk nie aku nk gnekn gak skill BM aku n tulis bnyk2 post.....
wahahahahaha.......
koya gak ea aku nie........
hehehehe.....
byo ar jnji aku xkcau org.......
sory lar ye klau ssape rse aku nie koya......
nk wat cmne,da aku mmg cmnie.....
hahaahaha.....

Aku harap org2 yg bce blog aku nie ley lar tnggalkn feedback kt aku.....
nk gak taw ape yg korg rse ble bce blog aku....
n hopefully aku dpt improve n tmbah creativity tuk blog aku nie.....
sory sgt2 klau aku nie bnyk mrepek jerk kt blog nie.....
insya-Allah pas nie aku try shabis baik improve gaya pnulisn aku...
n msukkn sgala mcm creativity kt blog nie....
bg ceria skit......
hehehehe.......
so thnx bnyk2 bg yg da jd follower.......
aku mmg hargai sgt2 jasa korg jd follower aku.....

Okay rse nyer smpai sni jerk ar yg aku nk ckp....
nt ble2 aku update lg blog.....
snang2 jnguk ar.......
hehehehehe...... 

                                       till den,
                                        love Kiwi 


Tuesday, December 21, 2010

Confession of a boredom......

Seriously dis couple of months really mkes me one of da laziest living person in da world.....okay my words r like scattered around but just try 2 gt it wll ya.....hmmmm.....dis is da real confession of a boredom......holiday is gud,evryone wll agree on dis.....u gt ur leave frm evrythng n hv plenty of rest n yes u cn hv a gud time wit ur family but wat if u hv a serious prob like me??? i'm a loner in my house n there is like no one 4 me 2 talk 2.....seriously dis is a total torture 4 me.......aaaaaarrrrrrrgggggggghhhhhhhhhhh.......okay2.....i noe i sound like a mother in a labour pain but if u're in my position u wll noe da pressure dat i faced here.......yeah pressure of just doin nothng.......help me smebody......i need my frens here.....i need my laugh here.....i need smeone 2 talk 2......i need smeone 2 do stupid thngs evryday.......hhahahha.....how i miss my life in IPBA.....fyi,IPBA is my college n stands 4 international teacher training institute.....shocking rite 2 noe dat i'm actually goin 2 b a teacher......lol.....evn my frens n teachers were like shock 2 death when i spit da words "hey,i'm goin 2 b a teacher"......hahhaha.......who noes frm a girl who used 2 mock hr teacher n parents goin 2 faced da sme thng in da future.....God bless me wit dat.....okay......since i'm in da mood of writing crap of my life,let me introduce u 2 my college.......IPBA is da place where we learn how 2 b a gud teacher.....lol.....specifically train 2 b a gud teacher.......since i'm taking TESL as my major,evryday i hv 2 speak in english......in da term of real n formal english......but nah,we nvr do dat.....we're Malaysian......we speak Manglish all da time.....wahahhahahha......gosh i nvr believe dat i'm actually miss IPBA.....practically i hate IPBA (dis is just btween us okay.....dun spil dis words 2 da HEP......if nt i'm dead).....i dun noe y but evryone who lives in dis college do.....hehehehe......i live in nt so cool life in IPBA cz again i'm telling ya dat i'm a shy person.....okay u cn laugh......but dis is da reality......i'm nt a well known person like my favourite buddies Alex Nuks n Azham Vosovic.....they r marvelous people.....n i love them cz they love 2 mke us laugh.....hahhaha......miss them so much.....n there is miss Nateesha a.k.a Natrah (called by Alex just 2 mke hr annoyed) where i love hr so much n fyi,she's my best fren in IPBA.....we used 2 hv sme misunderstanding but we hv cleared it all n b 4eva a gud fren 2wards each othr.....hahahha......i hate myself cz revealing dis 2 da public.....den,there is Amir Hamzah...ehem2 a.k.a da love of my life.....okay i'm goin 2 vomit blood here.....mayday2......hahahhaha.....but yes he is......special dedication 2 my twin,Rizal,whom i love so much......we loved each othr n we hate each othr.....hahhaha......siblings rite.....u noe wat i mean......my life in IPBA is a total opposite wit my life here in my hometown....i loved 2 b surrounded by these people.....intelligent people who smetimes a real pain in da ass but who cares...gosh i miss da crazy thngs we do tgether......hahhaha.....they r fun n happy people.......nice 2 hv them around......shocking news,we're goin 2 UPM people.......hahhaha.......bear wit me ya 4 da whole 5 n a half years....hahhahha.......hope u guys like me da way i like n love u guys.......n 4 those i dd nt mntion, i hv a special gift 4 ya.......hahhaha.......our class photo......boooo yaaaa.......hahhahha......my treat 4 u guys.....enjoy n laugh ya......btw,please do cmmnt smethng cz i really need 2 noe da feedbck......hehhehhe.....

                                           smethng 2 b laugh at.....lol.....


 
                                                    Laugh at ur own pics peeps......


                                                                                                                      till den, 
                                                                                               love Kiwi

Monday, December 20, 2010

Spices in life

Life is like a new recipe dat u created in ur kitchen n u like an amateur chef waiting 2 b evaluated by master chef in Hell's Kitchen......it's nt a rocket science 2 learn how 2 cook n we dun need special talent in it......just a few understanding n practice cn help one 2 b a chef in their own life.....when talking bout recipe n cooking,we cn relate it wit spices or any othr ingredient 2 mix n match it.....u cn use anythng 2 b ur ingredient......when i said anythng,i mean food.....lol.....well,just like our life,we need those spices n taste.....whether u put in sme sweet,sour or bitter taste in ur recipe,if u r gud enuf,it wll definitely bcome a great recipe of all......u cn choose 2 share it wit othrs or u cn keep it 2 urself until u found a suitable protege 2 b ur successor......a great chef wn't easily reveal hs/hers recipe 2 othrs n wll keep on inventing new recipes n live a life wit full of anticipation......sme thng in life where we create our own journey n live according 2 da path we've taken....sme may hv chosen a straight path in their life....straight path as in a road 2 success.....hehehhe.....sme taken a journey in a street dat is full of twists.....y is dat????? i always ask myself bout it.....i try 2 figured out wat type of journey or road i've taken.....looked back,i thnk i've taken both......n y is dat??? cz sme journey i figured it our myself while othrs hv been given by my parents....u guys must thnk dat i'm such a helpless person cz my parents help me wit dis kind of thng rite???? but hey i'm a girl n i'm da youngest in my family.....my parents wn't trust my opinion dat much n they dun really believe if i said i hv my own decision....well,i dun blame them....they just want da best 4 their children esp me.....but inside i do feel smethng.....as in i wanna lead my own life....i wanna b independent.....i noe dat they raised me 2 b one but still i wanna b independent 4 da whole thng in my life....i wanna follow my own heart......hv my own decision n live according 2 it.......i wanna b an adult who thnking bout da best 4 me n my future.....i wanna yell 2 da world n say i cn do it.......or mayb im brave enuf 2 face any challenges in my life....HAHAHA.....so nt goin 2 happen....i'm vry sure bout it.....nt until my parents believe dat i cn do all these thngs alone.....wish 2 hv dat in da future....i'm looking 4ward 2 it......definitely.....mayb......hahahhaha......so frm spices in life turns 2 a road nt taken,i hv talked crap n i hope dat u guys wn't laugh at my pieces of writing......hahahha.....well,i still cnsider myself as an amateur in dis blogging thngy.....i hope u guys cn really undrstand wat i'm talkin here n just keep dat laugh in u n dun reveal it much.....hehehehe.......b4 i stop my writing,i wud like u guys 2 tke a moment n relate 2 dis poem here by Robert Frost...... 


                                                   Road Not Taken


Two roads diverged in a yellow wood,
And sorry I could not travel both
And be one traveler, long I stood 
And looked down one as far as I could
To where it bent in the undergrowth;Then took the other, as just as fair
And having perhaps the better claim,
Because it was grassy and wanted wear;
Though as for that, the passing there
Had worn them really about the same,
And both that morning equally lay
In leaves no step had trodden black
Oh, I kept the first for another day!
Yet knowing how way leads on to way,
I doubted if I should ever come back.
I shall be telling this with a sigh
Somewhere ages and ages hence:
two roads diverged in a wood, and I -- 
I took the one less traveled by,
And that has made all the difference. 

                                                                                     
               
                                                                                                                         till den,
                                                                                                love Kiwi